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Believing God In the Middle of the Night

It’s amazing how fragile our faith can be, especially during times of waiting or trials.

We teach our children that God is all-powerful, all-knowing and always present, but then we function throughout the day as though He’s dead. We’re Confessional Christians, yet practicing atheists for all intents and purposes.

At least I was last night.

Last night I woke with night terrors and couldn’t go back to sleep. My mind swirled, scenarios played out, and thoughts raged. I tossed and turned. Flesh-woman was alive and well at 2 a.m.


My thoughts weren’t the thoughts of a Biblically sound woman. They were thoughts controlled by fear and doubt. Thoughts I had entertained during the day forgetting that sinful thoughts are sowing a harvest that I would surely reap.

Fear of the economy, money troubles, fears that my homeschooling attempts might short change my kids, and that I’m failing them. Failing. Because I had never heard of Manifest Destiny in History on one hand, and had missed a dentists appointment on the other. And let’s not forget Obamacare, and the economy. Yes, that’s important to remember at 2 a.m.

I finally got up to get a grip. I paced like a crazy woman. I had weeds to pull. I had to stop listening to myself and start talking to myself.

So, I began talking to myself, in my dark kitchen at 2:30 this morning, because I had to. I had soul clutter. It had to go. I recalled verses I had memorized:

“Trust in the Lord and do good, dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.”

“Commit your way unto the Lord, trust also in Him and He will act.”

“But I trust in You, O Lord, I say “You are my God.” My times are in your hands…”

My security does not rise and fall on the state of the United States of America. My security and safety is in God’s hands. 

“And God is able to make all grace about to you so that having all sufficiency in all things at all times, you may abound in every good work.”

“The Lord is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing will He uphold from them who walk uprightly.”

My kids will not be ruined by my deficiencies. If anything, my shortcomings are a chance for God’s glory and grace to be seen in our family. My job is to trust and obey His Word. He’ll give me what I need to do this job.  

On and on, reminding myself of the promises that I’ve forgotten as evidenced by my fitful night of sleep.

Whenever I choose to think Biblically I’m embracing the fact that God is God, and I am a created being, dependent on such a great God. I submit myself to God again. I remember who I am and who He is.

When I choose to let my thoughts go out of “Biblical bounds,” I’m living as though God’s a liar and that I know better. I’m doubting His word and entertaining my fears. His Word is true, whether I feel like it is or not at the moment. I’m wise to sift my thoughts through the truth of scripture because as you think, you act and become.

I’m not alone. Scripture tells of another Sarah who struggled with doubt and thinking problems. She was the barren wife of Abraham who was promised a child. She struggled with doubt for so long that she took matters into her own hands and told Abraham to use her maid, Hagar, to be her surrogate mother.  Sarah had God’s promise. God’s promise. And she doubted it and manipulated life to work in the time frame she was comfortable with using methods that God forbade. She focused MORE on her circumstances than on GOD’S words to her. She got tunnel vision and we get it, too.

Doubt is the direct response to looking away from God. If your circumstances are what you focus on, they will dictate how you think…

Since discouragement comes when we allow doubt to dominate our thinking, it stands to reason that discouragement left to fester eventually leads to despair. Have you experience this downward spiritual spiral? Have you grown weary of waiting for one of God’s promises to come to pass in your life? If so, how are you handling your thoughts?

Have you tried to escape doubts or discouragements by racing ahead of God? Perhaps there has been something in your life for which you’ve waited for God’s provision for a very long time. While waiting, did you cling unswervingly to His Word, or did you become fixated on your problem, thus making room for doubt to creep in? Did you become desperate for a solution? Did you look around at what you could do to solve your problem yourself, to fulfill your dream…reasoning that a particular [sinful] course of action was within God’s will, even if that path contradicted Scripture?


Lydia Brownack, Legacy of Faith: From Women of the Bible to Women of Today

It always comes back to trusting God to be God. To wait for His timing. To rest under His watchcare and to know that He’s good.

Are you waiting today? In the middle of a trial? Are you discouraged in your own fight against sin? You’ve seen the enemy and it’s you! lol. Have you tried to manipulate life so many times that it’s hard to know what the next right thing to do is? I’d encourage you to read God’s Word for direction. We can’t do this alone. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you into all truth and to give you the wisdom you need to rely on Christ. We need God’s grace, and that’s a great place to be. Don’t give up. Trust and obey.

Why Having Nothing and Being Empty Can Be A Good Thing

I love studying the women of God in the Bible and here’s why: because they all have something in common, and it’s not glamorous, flashy or anything you’d ever covet.

What they have is some kind of emptiness. A need, a want, or a lack.

And I love to watch where they turn in their need, because I need their example in order to live my Christian life.

These women turn to God and trust Him.

Sometimes God meets their need just they way they asked Him to, but other times He meets their real need, their need for Him.

Exhibit A: The Widow in 2 Kings 4.


“The wife of a man from the company of the prophets cried out to Elisha, “Your servant my husband is dead, and you know that he revered the Lord. But now his creditor is coming to take my two boys as his slaves.”

The widow had lack. She had no husband, and no money, and the money-lenders were coming to take her children.

Elisha replied to her, “How can I help you? Tell me, what do you have in your house?” “Your servant has nothing there at all,” she said, “except a small jar of olive oil.”

The pitiful truth was that all she had in the cupboard was olive oil. How desperate she must have felt. But she knew where to turn for help, the man of God, the prophet Elisha. Maybe she thought Elisha would organize a community food drive for her, or maybe request assistance from wealthier acquaintances in town, but that’s not what Elisha told her to do.

Elisha said, “Go around and ask all your neighbors for empty jars. Don’t ask for just a few.  Then go inside and shut the door behind you and your sons. Pour oil into all the jars, and as each is filled, put it to one side.”

So Elisha’s plan was a the “clandestine-behind-closed-doors-oil-making” scheme. Now, you have to admit that this sounds strange. And what if she hadn’t had faith? She could have rolled her eyes, snickered at this request, closed the door, thank-you-very-much, and lost her boys to the creditors. But instead she obeyed and God provided for her.

 She left him and shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring. When all the jars were full, she said to her son, “Bring me another one.”

But he replied, “There is not a jar left.” Then the oil stopped flowing.

 She went and told the man of God, and he said, “Go, sell the oil and pay your debts. You and your sons can live on what is left.”

The widow’s problem was a money issue. She’d run out, and there were no Visa cards in those days, no fall backs.

And you and I have our own set of needs. Maybe you’ve run out of energy to train or discipline your children. Maybe you’re at the end of your rope emotionally. Maybe you’re out of finances, health, friends or hope. Maybe your family is crumbling around you. Or perhaps your marriage has run clean out of love.

Maybe the only thing you do have is this ever-present burden, your awareness of this lack in you life. 

Can I just encourage you that sometimes, that is exactly when God will take over if we let Him? Our need can be a good thing. It can prompt us to begin searching again for the One who can bring Hope.

Sometimes when there’s nothing left, humanly speaking,

sometimes when problems seem impossible, insurmountable,

these are exactly the times when we can go to God and lay out our burden to Him. We give Him permission to take control. We throw our problem on him–> “Cast your burden upon the Lord.”

  • We see it with the Nicodemus who had everything going for him on the outside, religious respect, admiration, yet who was inwardly empty and searching for more,
  • We see it with the woman with the issue of blood who spent all that she had and was now reaching out in faith to touch the hem of Jesus garment
  • We see it with Mary and Martha who called, no begged, their friend Jesus to come back and heal Lazarus so he wouldn’t die,
  • We see it at the marriage feast in Caanan, where the newly-weds began their marriage with an embarrassing lack of wine for their guests which could have been seen as a social disgrace on the bridegroom

The place to go for help was the Lord. Not to girlfriends, not to food, or shopping, immorality, books, tv or the internet.

The Lord Jesus Christ. Our Help, Shepherd, Shield, Guide, Comfort, Savior.

And when you go to the Lord,

and relinquish control,

and admit that you are hopeless and that you need Him,

and hand him the reins to do as He will,

you’ll find that He will. He will meet our needs!

Sometimes — most times — our need is to know and trust Him more. Sometimes we must wait for His timing, submit to His plan, surrender our own sinful ways and embrace His.

And when we do, he’ll not only give us what is good and best,

He’ll fill us with His own divine self, so we can gather strength and love that comes from Him, hope that only He can give, and watch Him work on our behalf. While we’re waiting, studying His word, praying, meditating, walking by faith, we can go on doing what He has called us to do.

*What is it that is plaguing you today as a severe need? What have you run out of? Patience with kids or family members? Love for those around you? A desire to serve God where He’s put you? Hope that your kids ever never follow God? Can you bring it to the Lord and lay it at His feet to do with it as He will? Will you trust that He’ll do what’s best, right and good for you?